thanks guys... i'm touched... thanks for the msg n things u hv done to ease my lousy mood now... the game blockhead sent mi... scored so badly the 1st 2 times... -130, -340... n the 3rd... guess wad? i got 810! haa...
maybe life's lidat right... tho u might not suceed for the 1st couple of tries... but u'll still b able to make it if u hv the determination... am i right? i feel sad for him... bcos of his weakness... he has caused the 3 of us pain... our story is like a drama series... no matter how u look at it... u will juz shake ur head at it... y r we so dumb...
smthg hit mi hard ytd nite... its when i'm toking to him halfway... i realise tt i'm making a grave mistake in holding on.... it isnt mi... i'm not suppose to do tis... i hate jerks... i'm not suppose to pity them... let alone love them wholeheartedly... its not tt there r still others better guys out there who r more worthy of mi... its juz tt... i dun deserve such kind of treatment in return...
to him... its more den juz disappointment... i shud hate him... yet i dun feel it tt way... all the things he said to mi, all the things he hv done... r all enuff to make mi stab him rite thru his heart... but i juz dun hv tt grudge towards him... maybe i'm tired of tis alr...
i'm tried of explaining myself... fighting for my own rights... my own happiness... my everything... i'm tired of explaining to my frens wad he had done to mi, wad i hv done to myself... everything... pardon mi for my ignorance towards ur concern u hv shown mi... i'll b fine... i juz need more time tis time round...
cc's finally back! called her when she juz reach the airport... hearing her voice makes mi wan to cry again... i miss her so much...
dear is there for mi these few days... she is the one tell mi to fight for my women's pride for tis one last time if not i'll regret for my life... i told her there r things i juz cant speak my heart out to him... n she say now there's nothing more to hide... everything has to be out to him black n white... if tt still doesnt wake him up... den its time for mi to wake up...
sigh... guess wads the outcome? he choose not to wake up... but i did... its not tt i wan to prove him tt i'm stronger den him in anyway... i wan to walk out of his shadows once n for all... we're still gd frens... but things arent gonna b the same anymore...
i'm doing great guys... i dun cry so much nowadays... tho i can still wake up in the morning with a heartache feeling enuff to torture mi to cry like hell again... i still hv to live on, move on, look ahead of mi n smile =) right? i dun wan to pretend tis time... so if i cry in front of u... juz let mi vent it out k... =)
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mdm |
9/29/2005 11:14:00 AM
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