Howz?
how how how... i'm being naughty again... told dear n cc abt it... got lectured by cc... lolx... haiz... dear oso duno how to put it to mi... cos tis kind of thing so hard to decipher one... its not yet a month wad... so wad i'm feeling now shud b too overdoing rite... wads more... previously, it took mi so long to overcome it... even after a yr, there's still a pinch...
yea~ sigh... everybody tell mi dun think abt it... everybody tell mi to forget abt the so-called jerk... haiyo... zhen shi de...
i oso duno wads wrong wif mi la... my worm is telling mi to stop my non-sensical thoughts... yet... tis naughty fella here isnt doing wad she's told... haiz...
buttercuppy... howz?? howz?? haiz... its coming again... i cant seem to throw everything behind leh... gosh... i'm so stubborn... stubborn is my middle name... haiz...
anyway... another thing to rejoice is that i've got a full set of Anna Sui's products!!! wow~ amounted to 200+, gee... thx for all those whu contributed to my anna sui collection... so *gan dong* ne.... let's see wad i've got...
- ring rogue
- foundation + the lovely box
- blusher
- oil cleanser
- concealer
- concealer brush
- the free gift set [anna sui tin box, sample liquid foundation, 2 small bottle sample of diff type of cleanser, many many packets of treatment or duno wad whitening stuff, a facemask, a makeup casing n lastly anna sui's towel which is purple!!! n it can has 2 sides designs, purple + black]
so cool rite??? n i've got a pair of jeans of ztamp! thx to yiting... i've 25% discount on account of my bdae! cool yea? heh heh...
cc, i wan lilies~~ lolx... haiz... nobody's doing the toilet roll for mi... guess it cud only leave it for my future bf to do it... i shall leave him to do it for mi... lol... or buttercup can do it for mi!!! LOL... buttercup, guess wad weird idea i've came up wif?? i wanted a toilet roll wif msges written entirely on the paper itself... n rolled back... LOL... cool rite... i'll do it for my bf if i've the chance man... cos i definitely hv loads of stuff to tell him... cos i'm a chatterbox... lol... BUT!! provided that we'll get married in the end... if not... nah... i wun bother... lol... so farni... like as if i can predict whose my husband... tho' i oredi hv one loyal one... wahaha...
gary say he's gng to bring mi to ztamp to lemmi pick wad i wan from her shop n he'll get it for mi... but he oso refuse to do the toilet roll thing for mi... n quek oso... sianz... lolx... but its still the effort tt counts ya... i noe... i'm so understanding... lolx...
went to visit jeffrey at his workplace today~ so bu hao yi shi... always trouble him... i think more like bully him... lol... we go there n try the jeans but didnt buy... haha... but he dun seem to b pissed abt it... hee...
21st of tis month makes mi think of so many stuff again... so many things juz flashed back all at once... saw yaosheng at levis too... he got tis new watch which is the same as his... see, another thing to make mi think n think again... as i've said... everything i do, everything i see, i wake up, i open up cardboard to get clothes, seeing the liverpool shirt i got together wif him n stuff juz wrecks mi apart again...
guess tis is how ur being tormented mentality... i tot if i cud overcome my mom's whining... i can overcome tis too... love is like suicide man... haiz....
love makes u do silly things... gosh... life's hard... the person u fancy dun like u, the person whu like u, u dun fancy them... GoSh~!!!
haizzzzzzzz............ junquan, i really didnt noe... i didnt noe tt ur feelings towards mi is tt strong... but... haiz.... i'm such a baddie la... i'm stupid n i'm dumb n mostly imptly, i'm Stubborn!!! i duno why i kip lying to myself... i noe it takes time to forget... n especially now... it isnt the time to think abt other guys... cos i need ample time to get over... tell mi, how am i to like another guy in such a situation... i may be touched... but i still cant bring myself to do it... i'm the sort that is more emotionally attached... once i lose smthg, i need hell lot of time to put it back...
haiyooo.... i really duno wad i'm doing la har.... it seems to other tt i'm so dumb here to cling on n dun wan to move on... there's another much better one but i hv no eyes to look for him... haiz haiz haiz... mama, why do u hv to shen wo?? jiu ming ar... its so hard...
i duno how long i'm gng to hold on la har... like i can explode anytime.... haiz... can somebody knock mi down n leave mi in coma for 2 years.... haiz... sad isnt it... i juz cant get enuff of suffering... haiz...
roland, ur rite... the more i dun wan to think abt smthg, i more i will think abt it....
n dear u say, true love is basically one that does not ask anything in return... n as long as he is happy... zuo bu cheng nan peng you... hai ke yi zuo peng you... n in love n r/s... there's no right or wrong... its all abt giving n taking... n taking it as a learning experience... cos in the end... its mi myself who decide everything... how i wan to live my life... its my choice...
cc, ur rite too... i got to stand up my own n be firm... if i dun cut off all the contacts from him... how am i gng to forget him entirely n start afresh... ai qing is cannot mian qiang one... even no matter how well he noes mi..how much i like him, if cant b tgt as there is alot of zhang ai arnd den is cannot alr, den u should forget it...
its farni isnt it... i told him to be determined to do smthg if he has a goal in mind... but he refuses n claim tt he's weak n he cant do it... now i totally understand wad he's gng thru tt time... he did try... but he cudnt... like myself now...
its my choice... wad i plan to do... i got to face up to it myself eventually...
# posted by
mdm |
10/21/2005 12:16:00 AM