learn how to let go so u can breathe easier?
meisi... i hv rec'ed ur bdae card from aussie!!! thank u so much~ ur still as artistic as ever~ u hv told mi to learn how to let go so i can breathe easier... madeleine oso say i shud stop clinging on my past on move on... =(
everything takes time... perhaps till i meet a better one... or else i wud hv to do it slowly by myself... i chose the latter one... obviously i did it on purpose... hv u noticed tt i've been so busy recently after the ehem...?? n dive trip... n projects... n my meetings... gartherings wif my christian frens... i still have a whole lot more stuff jamming up... i didnt rec my debit card... got to re-apply for it... n my US visa.. got to go down to the US Embassy wif valerie to do it... n got to go down to sch's office to get my approval stamp for the Work and Travel Program in US next may, to prove that i'm still a Full Time student in tp... i'll be gng alaska wif valerie next may till august...
i perfer adventurous guys than nobs who wud stammer whenever he's talking to mi... but rather some affectionate guy who listens, whose spontaneous, compliments, gives mi space and challenge mi... repect my space, doesnt control mi, trust mi, n has faith in his own charm n mi too... n tts wad i call, Mr Right...
on the other hand i hate guys who hv got roving eyes for other pretty gers <--- they such a piece of shit... ok wadever... i hate them... one who talks too much.. which involves a monologue on himself or abt mi... one who only says yes to mi... ?<--- hell boring!... one tt orders mi ard... <--- i'm not ur dog... one who is always unavailable <-- maybe wif his own kind of sports or games... wadever... n lastly, one who is indecisive... <-- totally hate tt... one who doesnt hv his own pt of view... cant make up his mind... <-- this kind of jerk aint gonna give ya any commitment to the r/s... n tts wad i call, Jerk...
now i noe why ppl always say to listen to urself but not others... n not let other ppl's point of view affect urs... i always mind wad others think abt myself... now i wun... i wun wan to give a damn... as a fren i do take them as a swift comment... i wudnt let them affect my personal point of view anymore... my own point of view might b stubborn, one-sided, selfish, unfair.... wadever ppl say... tts my own life... i live it myself... i dun need others to judge mi...
i alr dun care wad others say abt mi... i have even closed down my previous blog to avoid anonymous harsh comments... but i guess its juz a stoopid idea to close it down bcos of them... now... tho others have found it... i dun care anymore... i even placed tis link in friendster... wads there to hide anyway... they can slander mi in which ever way they like... tt i wun give a damn fuss abt it...
i hate ppl telling wad i shud do wad i shudnt do... even tho its they maybe right n i'm in the wrong.... i m old enuff to distinguish it myself... all these while... i'm being ordered... taken in control... n i had enuff of these crap.... probably... alaska is the one of a hideout for mi to recover from all these stress 'factors'... n i do hope tt my appeal to dad abt aussie study works for mi! =)
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mdm |
11/01/2005 02:41:00 PM