New Skin!
my new skin! nice not... but hor... the width like too small lar... shitty... but i like the design la... especially the butterfly there... lolx... aiya... lemmi get sick of tis skin 1st then i'll change to a more user friendly one... lol... i noe the scroll bar is invisible... so u got to search for it by clicking at random... lol... gd luck!
guess wad? i went for anna sui interview today! lol... hope i get the job! wahaha... recommended by winsor... cos he's working for the same company too... yeap...
sat is nafa liao... scary~ i shall walk! lol... at least i hv worm n dear to walk wif mi... we shall stroll n enjoy the breeze~ lol...
i love tt song by kelly clarkson! addicated! is superb! nice nice nice... n im now addicted to tt song... aww...
i realised many many stuff recently... time really flies... i might appear not keeping up wif the pace... bcos of tt incident... but i guess i hv gotten over it faster than i tot this time... tho loneliness always creeps in... i still hv frens ard mi... i feel them... yeap...
my 1st bible study wif the new conductor ytd was rather interesting... b4 tt.. had a chat wif my former conductor... mom's giving mi lots of pressure again... n i hate it... tok to my former conductor abt it... she wans to hear from mi how i feel abt the change... cos my mom requested it... she damn dammit la... haix... we juz chat abt it... didnt noe i was actually feeling very stressed abt it, didnt realised it myself either until we touch on the sensitive topic... cos i hardly tok to ppl abt it... n my tears juz came out suddenly... n its damn paiseh lar... she wanted mi to make my own decisions n not let my mom's take control of mine till to the point where i cant take it yet i keep surpressing it...
my new conductor is a very old lady... knew her since 3... well, she's a darling la... very experienced too... she knew exactly wad to impart in mi... ask mi the crucial tot provoking qns... wad if a guy who is not a christian asked u out... shud u agree to go out wif him? or maybe he ask to b together... shud u or shud u not? i was like dumbfolded... i didnt noe how to answer her... i will but i shudnt... den she start to ask mi wad wud it be like for mi in the long run... maybe we hv gotten married in the end... tho he's a free thinker... we still hv different believes... it is so not easy to make it possible in another words...
well, these qns wud hv hit mi harder if i'm still attached... but since i'm not... i shant think abt it... cos it will only add on to my amount of troubling things in mind now... i noe i'm sort of avoiding tt issue... but i dun like it... everything i seem to do... i'm feel so restricted... juz like how my mom wans mi to b... i hate it... i'm cant be as normal... tho that shud b considered as normal to them... haix... wadever... i dun care as much now... cos i'm sick n tired of being tied down by all those gulit-conscience principles... wad bible trained conscience... they r all making mi feel awful... haiz... stress**
i need to take a break... from everything... from my parents... n gain back my freedom from her thru tt US trip... 4 months shud b enuff ba... since i've alr got over it n moving on... i shud b reassured tt i'll b enjoying myself over there n not think abt it... =D
quek's gng ireland wif mengni... n the ppl there also speaks english! lol... i'm so toot... of cos they do... tts the international language wad...
ok la... time to slp... its 3am now... sianz...
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mdm |
11/08/2005 02:20:00 AM