damn... blogger is lan one... my colour slection icon disappear from the toolbar suddenly... juz like my previous account lidat... sian... wad is tis man...
ytd was my 2nd day of work... each day is getting better n better there... n julia's working there too! i saw her on my 1st day there but dun dare to call out to her cos i scare i call the wrong person... den on the 2nd day i bring my customer to the counter to pay for her escada perfume, she was at the cashier counter helping out... n she saw mi too! n she got a shock too... lol... she tot i work there very long liao but never notice mi till then... lol... but sadly, today's her last day... n today i'm not working... haix... nvm will try to get her to work for my company cos she's available to work on during the holiday season! yay~
it was the 2nd day of work n was alr treated to chocolates by the "la da" there.. lol... rico was the one training mi, n alvin is the promotor of hugo boss fragrance.... both r lamers... rico bought SINS chocolate for alvin n mi... it was heavenly** lol... julia came to my counter a couple of times to chit chat... she knock off earlier den mi ytd... n we went 'shopping' ard the fragrance counter of level one... but i went back to my counter n do my job la... haas...
ytd morning was supposely my napfa test day... but i din went for it... n i totally forgotten abt kaay's tree planting activity at the same venue too! well, it was raining heavily in the morning... thunder n lighting thru'out the island.. n worm gave mi morning call at ard 5 n say tt its alr 6! where i'm suppose to leave the house alr... well... obviously i dun believe laa... my alarm juz went off not long ago... i wud not hv overslept for so long one.. somemore the sun was not up yet...
after washing up, went to make breakfast n get changed... mom was woken up by the slightest sound i made in the kitchen... n ask mi y now den i finish doing my stuff... she tot i was preparing to sleep when i went to brush teeth... while in actual fact i was gng to sch alr! den worm's call came n ask mi to msg yvonne to check if the test's still on... but i was so stoopid tt i went to msg to her office... arr.. but then it wasnt too late when i realise tt mistake n msg her again.. she say there will b no test if it continue raining till 7.15... emm... but then how r we gng to make it down if it stops raining at 7.14?? haiyo... might as well sleep la... lol...
when i was back to my lalaland again... stoopid kaay woke mi up by calling mi! ask mi where am i n y i nv go for the tree planting... when i told him i'm at home sleeping, he nearly freak out la... lol...
work wif uncle wan in morning field today... he say somebody told him tt i was spotted at orchard wif my frens... well... wads wrong wif tt... he actually concern abt my association especially wif 'worldy' frens... cos the bible warns of bad association... haix... to them, only association wif "our people" is good association... the rest r baddd....
n he goes on abt the bgr thingy lo... haix... i noe la... dun get too close wif boys right... i noe i noe... he say these things r unavoidable one... tts y we must put a barrier bet the 2 to prevent ANY misunderstanding taking place... I NOE tt lo... i seriously understand wad he meant... he meant well la... if he were to say these things to any of my frens... they will think he's brain washing mi... well, he is NOT... cos i grew up in this kind of teachings... of cos i shud noe wad is right n wrong for mi... juz tt... i'm kinda..... ermm... i wan something for a change...
i'm not being rebellious or wad... juz tt the association in my congregation is getting smaller n smaller... n my association wif my "worldy frens" is getting wider n wider each day... cutting off is another issue... i cant do it overnight... tts too absurd alr... haix...
uncle wan says tt for a woman, the most important thing in her life is choosing the right guy to marry... n for the man, its his career... tts so not fair lor... u mean a guy can remarry if he found out tt he marries the wrong lady? not fair...
uncle wan says when he n auntie oui leng were schooling during college days... 8 guys were gng after her n 2 gers r gng after him... wow~ i dun think r/s like their's is common nowadays... ppl r taking r/s for granted...
i always think tt its not easy for 2 to fall in love... well, at least not for mi... cos i dun do tt easily... haas... i dun throw myself to any guy who comes up to mi n tell mi tt they r interested in mi... to mi, they r bold enuff to do tt... i admire their courage... but if they're those whu do this to every ger they see or fancy... they're juz cheapos to mi... those kind of guys gives mi insecurites where ever they are... cos words are no longer the ones u can trust from their mouth...
sigh~ sometimes i feel wadever i doing to myself juz contradicts to wad i believe n say... its not something which i wan it to be lidat... it juz so happens naturally?
we cant change history for the fact, but we can change wads gng happen to our future... n we can learn from it... we hold our own key to our future... dui bu dui?
but sometimes its easy telling others wad they shud do... wads right n stuff.. but its hard doing it urself... tts mi...
i need someone not juz who wans to be wif mi... but somebody who is able to put down wadever Great responsibility n run free wif mi... i dun mean elope in this case lar... cos i wish to b tied down... n cos of nobody wans tt... i feel caged now... those who noes mi well noe wad i'm refering to la... tts y i dun wan tt to ever happen again... i need freedom... i cant accept guys tt get jealous easily over lil lil things... i'll suffocate one day n die... trust n faith r the most impt elements le... dui bu dui wormy?
i can feel all the frustration again when i hear them quarrel... mom n dad... if only i can dump their words into the bin or flash them down the loo... n sometimes i wished i can faster get married n move out of the house... tt'll b great! in tt case i dun hv to bother who to choose to b wif in the end...
tuning to: "Over"-lindsay lohan
**I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye**
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mdm |
11/13/2005 09:22:00 PM