was real busy recently... didnt have the time to update... after wad had happened... guess its beyond words to describe...
yes, i'm gng to leave her... i told her tt i wud rather choose my dad... cruel to any mom's ears isnt it? cos i feel tt i had enuff of her n everything she did to mi... its time to put them to an end...
i'm tired of fearing wad she's gng to threaten mi wif... n i'm not gng to have tt kind of fear any more... hopefully..
recently, i start to feel scared gng to sleep alone at nite... tt was wad i was feeling when i was young... i cant get to sleep alone at nite... but i am always made to sleep alone at nite... when she left mi at the middle of the nite, i'll start to cry myself to sleep... so sad rite... but not now anymore...
growing up is the best thing life u'll ever experience... but not all get to 'grow up' even they r growing up literally...
finally, my papillio sandals r here wif mi alr... cant wear them yet... got blisters on my feet... all bcos of tt pair of heels... gers... cramps n heels, u juz cant hide from them...
sch's gng to end soon... once this busy season ends, we got to make impt decisions in our life of where to go... at least not for the guys yet... but for us gers... this is one big issue to consider...
uni or work?? headache...
i finally finished watching summer scent! sometimes it an irony... heartbreak n love... to experience both at the same time... korean shows r always portraying the female leads as the weaker ones... always down wif some terminal illness... typical korean shows...
sometimes, life is like tt too... stuck in between choosing wan ur heart feels like doing n doing wads right... but i believe for certain things, there is no right or wrong... their definition of wads right depends on how u view towards them... whether u choose to hv an open mind or u choose to be stubborn abt it...
i find that i certainly noe wad i wan in life... i dun need her or anyone to tell mi wad i shud be doing, or wad i shudnt be doing...
i used to doing things alone now... at 1st was still worried that i cudnt overcome tt loneliness... but i like the way it is now... perhaps we all need some time out... yeap, by then, things wud be different... at least, i still have frens ard... shud consider tt as a blessing, isnt it?
how well can u deal wif ur emotions? do u cry when ur sad in front of ur frens or do u give an expression-less face all the time? or do u hide it up wif ur laughter or so? seriously, i duno i will do now... i duno if i shud cry or luff or i shud stone... maybe i'm used to it alr... facing up wif all those nonsense in life... i juz hope tt 2006 will be a trouble-free year for mi... no more catfights, no more misunderstandings, no more wrong timed fate, no more screamings from her, no more unhappiness...
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mdm |
1/04/2006 11:19:00 PM