i'm trapped at home again.. today is grandma's bday! 77 liao... wish i can live till 77 like her too... with grandchildren n great grandchildren... hahaha....
the uni thing is quite bothering mi... cant really decide wad to study yet... dun wan to screw my life bcos of this... dad ask mi if i still wan to go us to study.. well, financially we r facing a huge problem... 2ndly, if i dun go there to study... a big possibility tt i'm gng to screw my life here... next, if i go... i'm gng to screw my relationship with sam... =(
us uni entry requires alot of shit... i need to take tests like SAT, TOEFL, STAT, blah... fill up dozens of application stuff... soo troublesome... but my gugu is willing to help mi... but dad say he is still not sure if i can really go... so he tell mi not to be 100% happy 1st... 80% happy will do... lolx...
am not sure if i'll be really happy if i really made it there... cos it will be v different from the last time i went there... not for vacation purpose... but settling down over there le... tts the main purpose of gng there to study...
oh yea... my brother is gng there to study post doc with his gf=wife to be... soon my whole family is moving there too! wahaha... i hope monster stays if not, dun be mad again...
my dear sam book out only for a day this week... was told tt he cudnt bring his phone in when he book in again... n he wasnt feeling well when i saw him ytd... so was quite worried abt him... n when he send mi home ytd nite, i cudnt help it n cry in front of him la... when he see mi cry he oso cry... haix... my poor boy... he dun wan mi to see him cry so he left quickly after i got into the house... *oh man... where am i gng to find such a bf again...* ya la... so tts how we're doing now...
we still she bu de each other whenever sun night comes... if i dun see him for another year or 2... im so gonna cry my eyeballs out... haha... n so is he la...
i guess our r/s is kinda stable now... (weekends r/s)= (ns r/s) are still managable for us... but long distance is really hard... we tried for like 5 months alr... n it really feel like shit... trying it again will be the last worse thing i ever wanted to happen again to mi...
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mdm |
1/29/2007 12:14:00 AM